jerry

why
i choked.
it was more than
sitting and waiting
on the branch of the tree
for you to come down and give
me the roses so i could plant them
in our new garden. it was more than me
sitting and waiting under the stars for you
to come by and wish for me on them. it was the
night you ran past her to catch me when i was falling
when you gave me the first reason ever to smile
that day, when you held me, blood rushing
down my face and swore to stay with
me until it ended. until it ended
until it ends. i won't leave
you. and you stayed
like no one else
had, and i
loved
you

golden sunshine

it's because you sat on the phone
with me that night for
three hours and told me everything.

the first time you knew, the
first time you told someone, the
first time they told you not to proceed,
the first time they told you to
proceed, the first time you hessitated,
your first dream about me, your
song for me, your prayers for me,
everything, and you told me-
and this changed my life-
"it's always been you, r!tah."